The fundemental things of life as time go's by
I'm starting to lose the plot, mainly with school but also life in general, i need a change something interesting in my life, to make a difference to something somehow, so i matter. Hope everything is well with u, and the world is treating you kindly. Mabie it's the season here thats contributing to making me sad, it's autum we're almost in winter and the days are growing short and gloomy, altho they've been oddly warm. It's nice to put some thoughts to words, it makes me feel less useless and empty.
It was my boyfriends 18th birthday on tuesday and i went to visit him, he's having tea with his family in my town tomorrow, I miss him, he held me together. Gee i wish i wasn't so slack.
I'm starting to not want to get up in the mornings because i know it will just be another bad day at school, now thats what it's all come to. Why does noone warn u about yr 12 or prepare you for the hell your about to go through, it's nothing like all the other yr's no wonder so many people drop out or commit suicide it's alot to handle.
Anyway i know i'll be fine all the best with you hope your making the most of your life, because life can be wonderful. I'm just not seeing that at the moment.